So after 7 weeks of radio my mind’s been blown, Catwoman’s hung up her whiskers and I deserve a medal for not stabbing anyone with a fork.
No more fuckerty-fuck brain fucking for me.
Ecstatic it’s over, but glum to say bye-bye to the gorgeous proton team.
The last days were exceptionally vile. I couldn’t get out of bed, couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep, couldn’t tell which end needed the loo.
It felt like bad morning sickness. But I don’t believe in immaculate conception and my name’s not Mary so I know I’m not up the duff.
At one point I considered throwing myself out the bedroom window but it was raining and I didn’t want to die wet.
Whilst I was Catwoman for 660 mins (33 sessions) and screwed to a table unable to move or speak I had plenty of time to contemplate.
I realised I’m now one of those ‘living proof’ types that demonstrates ‘anyone’s world can turn on a dime.’
For fucks sake, in January I was swimming in the ocean with a pod of frisky dolphins.
I’ve been enlightened and this isn’t the ‘canned’ bullshit kind of enlightenment. This is real life shit.
When you have an annoyingly incurable thunder-cunt disease the best thing to do is look at the positives.
You can always find some.
Weight loss… Oh come on… I see you rolling your eyes… But seriously who wouldn’t love to shed their roly-poly love handles.
Presents… It’s like Christmas… Silk scarves, hampers, flowers, knickers, vintage fizz, silk pillowcases, huge industrial vacuum cleaner juice making machines and even balloons.
Friends… Calling and texting daily to perk me up and make me laugh.
Visitors… OMFG this is the best. Loved ones staying and cooking and chauffeuring and walking mad-dog and making me laugh. It’s been the best tonic.
Haters… This has been a great way to filter out the butt-munching cunts that never gave a shit… Luckily there’s not many. They think they’re champagne in a crystal glass but all they really are is luke warm piss in a plastic cup. At the end of the day they’ve lost me and I’ve simply lost time.
Perspective… I had it all wrong before. I gave too much of a shit about irrelevant superficial bollocks.
Poison… I gave up sugar as apparently it feeds cancer. It also appears to feed cellulite because mine’s almost gone. If that’s not a fucking result I don’t know what is.
Filter… I don’t have one and fuck me it’s liberating.
The biggest one of all is Love… Love really is the answer. It gives you strength, hope, comfort and laughter. It’s the remedy for all aliments. And as Mr. Bryan Ferry sung ‘Love is the drug.’ He was spot on.
And true love doesn’t care what you look like. M loves me for who I am. He doesn’t care if I have half a head of hair and look half dead half the time. He loves me for what’s inside (and the English roasts I make him). He’s not anguished by my outside appearance. He isn’t just my rock he’s my world and I couldn’t have made it this far without him to drag me (by what hair I have left) through it.
So if there’s anyone out there wading through shit right now and needs help finding some positives… Just buy a shovel and start digging ‘til you find it.
Don’t fuck it up… dig it up!